Many times, I’ve been asked different variations on the same question: “Why?”
Why do you run? And, why do you run sooooo far?
What makes you want to do an Ironman? Repeatedly?
Are you going to keep doing Ironmans all the time now?
So, is all this stuff the new normal?
Why would you put your body through all of that?
Because I’m not sure the person truly wants to hear the real answer, I usually offer up something quick like “It’s fun,” or “Because I can.” Then, I offer a nervous smile, because I feel fairly certain that the person asking the question thinks I’m a nutball. If they didn’t, they probably wouldn’t have asked the question in the first place.
These surface answers, however, don’t give much insight into the deeper, fulfilling reasons why I love triathlon and running, and why I cannot imagine my life without it. These are the real reasons why I am thankful for the ability to swim, to bike and to run, for the ability to push my limits so I can learn ever more about this amazing life.
I am thankful for triathlon and running because I have found my place as an athlete. As an overweight child, I struggled with self-image, self-esteem, and confidence. As a high school crew athlete, I found a new purpose for my body. But, it wasn’t until I started running long distance and competing in triathlon that I realized just how amazing the human body can be–both in my own experiences, as well as the experiences of others. It makes me feel that the only limits are the ones we have in our heads. As we break through those limits, we experience something truly extraordinary.
I love triathlon and running because I enjoy competition. Friendly competition, of course, but competition nonetheless. I will smile and be friendly, but I will also set a target on your back and run you down–especially if you are a female in my age group. My eyes scour the numbers on calves, seeking prey. I know you would do the same of me – and that’s the fun of it! Fair competition among equally matched athletes. I enjoy the thrill of running people down, especially in the second half of the marathon in an Ironman. That just may be my favorite part of an Ironman.
I love triathlon and running because I don’t provigil want to be fat and sick and tired all of the time. I am stronger, healthier, and faster than I have ever been in my life. I love knowing that I can do any type of physical activity, whenever I want. I love the looks on people’s faces when I pick up heavy things that they thought such a “little girl” couldn’t handle. I love that I can appreciate my body for what it does, instead of hating it for what it looks like.
I am thankful for triathlon and running because I feel like an equal. My experience as an endurance athlete counteracts all of those times in my life I was told I couldn’t (or shouldn’t) do something because I was a female. There is nothing quite like blowing a snot rocket or peeing on yourself to help you feel like you are your own woman. This isn’t about acting like a man; this is about being a strong, independent woman.
I am thankful for triathlon and running because these experiences empower me. This feeling is strong in those moments when I am battling through a tough session using only my own wits and abilities to hit the targets and accomplish the goal for the workout. I anticipate the moment when I hop on my bike, in preparation for long hours in the saddle. Those first few pedal strokes, as the wind hits my face and the ground begins to fly underneath me, give me such a feeling of adventure, of journey into the unknown. I relish those moments during my long runs, when my legs take my body and brain for a ride. I cross city lines, explore new trails, and solve the world’s problems–at least in my head.
I am incredibly thankful for the wonderful new relationships that I have built in this community. John and I have met so many wonderful people, and our lives are better for your presence in our lives. I have learned much, laughed deeply, and lived more fully because of each of you. And, if you are reading this blog, then you know who you are.
On this Thanksgiving Day, I am filled with grateful appreciation for the many blessings in my life that allow me to pursue this extraordinary lifestyle. I wish the same joy, love and fulfillment for each of you. Happy Thanksgiving!
